several weeks ago,  it came to me in an ordinary night
stepping on my mind so subtly, seeping a scene that long-forgotten
finally, I blink and understand
finally, I came to the acceptance of why things went the way they are

so I gather all my power to (really) let go and stop the loop
the loop that unconsciously became too toxic for my sanity
to stop questioning and bewildered of the vagueness in where I stand
to rest from running in the same place
to sing the anger to sleep
to heal properly
and at last, to forgive

It isn't on my plate to be bitter
nor it is to despise someone I, with so much certainty, truly love.
do understand, as I still learn how to grip better,
I rather have us lose in touch than watch myself resent you, for it is never in my best intention.

It hasn't been an easy journey to get to this point
but I can properly say that I am now in a better place

so I guess now we can truly go our own way
for time is not yet reaped for us to collide again
shall it be, may it comes on a sunny day